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Wednesday, 25 November 2015

The One

(Writers Note: In an ironic twist about 30 minutes after I finished writing this blog into my notebook, the women this piece is about decided to go on a separate path in life to me.
But that does not diminish the meaning behind these words, so I have decided to put it up here like I originally planned.
Perhaps if I had said the below to you instead of writing it things may have been different, but my love and thoughts are always with you, and I hope you find the happiness you truly deserve)

A while back I wrote a blog about how my life was changing (Riding the Waves to a Better Future - Go check it out), and in it, I mentioned that I met the most amazing women and that there would be more about her in a future blog ..... Well, here it is.

From the first moment, I saw her as corny as it may sound to some of you I knew she was the one.
I mean she has it all.
She is funny, drop dead gorgeous, driven, loyal and honest.
And she also manages to put up with me.
I admit I can be a lot to take at times (If not all the time), I have a lot of faults, I say the wrong things most of the time.
I joke too much especially when the majority of the time I'm not very funny, I try to shield myself from others to stop being hurt and use my humor as self-defence (In particular in places where I don't know anyone or I'm nervous) plus I'm a comic book nerd and sport nut.

She loves me for me.
 I've had people in my life who decide to have me in their life but then after a while they get sick (or bored) of me and leave but I can honestly say that all of these people and the pain they caused me was worth it because they led me to her.
She is the first women in my life that my friends and family adore as much as I do.
A women who when I asked why she loved me and couldn't say it in words wrote down 89 reasons why she loved me (This is by far my most treasured gift, and I am in the process of finding a large enough frame to put it in so I can hang it up on my wall),.
I would love to be able to write all the reasons why I love her down on paper but I wouldn't have enough paper to do it hence why I am writing this blog dedicated to her.

I love her and her family, her Nan and Pop are two of the kindest people I have ever met, and I hope that I can be as great as them one day.
Her brothers and sisters have been so kind to me and make me feel so welcome.
My family love her to bits too (In fact I think they may even like her more than they like me).
She is a beacon of light in this sometimes dark world that I live in.

We are planning to go on a trip to Thailand next year, and even though I haven't been very helpful in planning what we are doing over there so far, I have been planning a destination over that would be the perfect place for me to propose to her.
I joke about freaking out about marriage and kids with her (There's that unfunny sense of humour of mine), but I honestly could not see anyone else I would want to marry and Thailand looks like such a beautiful place to ask her to spend the rest of our lives together.

I love her with all my heart, and I am so grateful that I have been blessed to have this beautiful angel come into my life.

It has been a month or so since I started writing this (It has been my main piece of writing that I want to get right, so I have been taking my time) and I am actually currently writing this in her lounge while this amazing human being is making lunches for us for the upcoming week.
It is thoughtful things like this that she does that make me so happy and thankful that she is in my life.
She has been pestering me about not writing, but I don't want to ruin the surprise about what I have been writing and the fact that it is all about her, so I have been telling her that I haven't been writing much of anything lately.
She always supports me in everything I do, and I hope that I can support her in the same way with all the goals and dreams she has in the future.
She has faith in me when even I have lost faith in myself.

I dragged the poor girl around the Armageddon Expo yesterday when she was hungover and as sick and tired as she was she didn't complain or get mad at me, I mean how amazing is that!
I want to find something that she really likes and wants to do that I can take her to and show her that I am willing and want to do things that she wants to do as well.

She has just left the house now to get some containers for our lunches so I will use this time while she is not here to finish up (So I can actually spend time with her instead of writing in the corner) this piece by writing directly to her

Hun, I just want to say how thankful I am for you, you are a truly amazing and inspirational person who I will always aim to aspire to be like.
I know you sometimes think that I am with you just because you showed up but that is not the case I am with you because you are my dream girl.
I am sorry that I may not always show it or say it but I am so happy and thankful that you came into my life and I know we will have ups and downs and disagreements in the future but I believe that our love will get us through it all.
I'm also sorry that I have been a lot quieter than normal but with my great grandmother passing away the same week as the anniversary of one of my friends who died and her funeral being on the birthday of Granddad who passed away when I was young (Which still affects me daily to this day),.
I know you have been worried that it was something to do with you but this is how I grieve I go internal for a few weeks then bounce back, and I'm almost back to normal.

I look forward to spending the rest of today, tomorrow, next week, next month and all the years to come with you.
You are the beat in my heart, the music in my laughter and the sparkle in my eyes.
You mean the word to me.
I love you forever and always

Love Bradley